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Lord of the Dance

Today's the Day!! I have been waiting for this day for the past 2 months now and it is finally here! Wahaha! Today is the day which I go to watch Lord of the Dance.

Actually, about 2 month ago, I started asking people if anybody is interested to watch Lord of the Dance with me. But everybody's response is the same: ticket too expensive liao. So, after a complete failure in getting people to watch the show with me, I decided to go ahead and buy the tickets, and worry about the getting people part later. In the end, I realised that nobody is as rich as myself and is willing to pay $125 for the ticket so I offered it free to anybody who wants to watch it with me.

The 1st to response is Miss Car. Miss Car was a friend of mine whom I know in my NUS CCA. The last time I saw her was about 2 years ago. We have been trying to meet up for some time now but were always unsuccessful. But this time she responded to my invitation 1st and so I decided to let her have the ticket and we can go together. We met for a quickie dinner and Plaza Sing's Swenson's before proceeding to Kallang Theater for the show.

This is the 1st time I stepped into Kallang Theater and the 1st time I went for any musical or play. I must say, I enjoyed myself tremendously. There is a lot of ballet and tap dancing and violin playing in the 2 hours show. It was great! Well worth the $250 I forked out. I loved the tap dancing there. It is so explosive! I think the 1st time I saw tap dancing was in Sesame Street. Heehee. Too bad I never had the chance to take it up. I love violin too. But not very much into ballet though.

Here's a picture of my and Car at Kallang Theater, after the show. Think nowadays I always go out with pretty girls everyday and post their pictures in my blog. Hmm....



Amuse> How? Is she the small small, sweet sweet kind also? Haha.

Meeting Cindy

Met The Cindy yesterday! (Read her version of the story here) I think the last time I saw her was during her convocation one and half years back. Heehee. She still looks as good as ever, in fact, even better.

Cindy works in this place at IBP Jurong, which is very near to where FF works. But on my way there, I got really lost on in the place that I made 4 illegal U-turns while looking for her. In fact, I even went against traffic for a good hundred metres on Jurong Town Hall Rd. Haha. Yes, I'm a loster- I always get lost when I'm driving to a place for the 1st time.

Finally met Cindy after 30minutes of wondering in wilderness. We drove to Jurong Point where we had dinner at Mac. I have no idea why she thinks I eat Mac all the time. Maybe it is because I was the star of Super-Size Me. Anyway, I was feeling very poor yesterday so she treated me dinner. Heehee. Girls always treat me dinner.

After dinner she took me to this lingere shop at JP. I decided that light green is my favourite colour for a bra, non lacy and minimal ... er... pattern. I dunno why we went there though... We just walked a while inside then we came out. Maybe she did not find what she want...

After everything I drove her home at about 10pm. And after that I got lost (again!) and drove around her estate twice. Haha. Here's a picture of her (edited upon her request such that people cannot recognise her...)

Eh... Amuse, she's not the "sweet, sweet, small small, slim slim, demure smile kind" right? Heehee. Or maybe you can't tell cos I blocked out her face... Haha. Never mind. Can read what I think of her here.

After our hot date I went to play mahjong with my brudders. And won 60bucks... Haha. Am so tired now... Going back to sleep again...

Hot and Humid Day.

Nothing much today. Still cannot get over the fact that my comp had died on me. And I had to use my brother's PC for everything. No mood to surf blogs or anything.

My financial planner (aka insurance agent) called me today. Had to settle some things with her today so I met her for lunch. We had Fish & Co!!!! Very long never eat Fish & Co liao. Still think the Fish and Chips there is heaven... But a bit the very oliy though...



Pretty right? OK lah. She looks better in person. Too bad she's already married (just last week) and she's... er... a little older than me. But she looks much younger than her age and she is SOOOOO sweet. Too bad I knew her too late...

Then evening time is cell group time again. I love cell group time. Haha. But today a bit the restless. I think is due to the hot and humid weather these days. Hot and humid weather is bad for the guitar woods, and its also bad for my concentration.

Ok. It's getting to hot for me here... I'm going to bathe and sleep already.... Or maybe I'll just go to sleep... Heehee

Comp Conk Day

Some time ago, I bought a new external hard disk and a DVD/ CD ROM. 2 months later, today, I finally decide to fix the damn thing in. Actually, I got my friend over to help me fix it. But 30 minutes into the process I heard a loud "BOOM"! And that's the last I heard of my old computer. After some troubleshooting and analysis, he declared that my motherboard is GF and I need to get a new one.

So now I'm stuck without a comp and I'm blogging with my brother's comp in the living room. As the weather is freaking warm and humid, I will keep this post short and sweet. I will not even stay back to chat on MSN.

Cleaned my room today! Heehee. Considering I did not even do so for Chinese New Year, this is quite a feat. Actually, I only cleaned some parts. (i.e. the comic books)

Before...



Heehee, quite a mess I've dug up. Tons of comic books here. And tons of dust. Wanted to blog about each comic earlier but now its too hot to continue.

There are actually 2 piles of these...



And now after...



Yeah! But my room doesn't seems any more tidy though... Haha

Cannot take it. I'm going back to my air-con room to hide now...

Bo liao....

Very Bo liao... Just updated my Mandarin Lesson Post...

What's so good about my post?

Just wondering what is so good about my post that you people keep reading? Usually I just blog about what happens in my life from morning to night, or stuff like I did this today at what time. The fact is, as I look at my blog, I think I have a very boring life. Also, I do not have very in depth observations to current affairs not funny antics to share. So why actually do you read my blog anyway? Nevertheless, I would like take this chance to thank you support in my blog and interest in my life.

Now, back to my boring life...

Lets start from last Sat... Haha, did not blog this earlier cos I could not upload the pictures... Had a wonderful time in church on Sat. Not only was is my friend's baptism, our cell also wore the same T-shirt to church and got everybody talking about it. Wahaha. Picked JH up from her home earlier and she's so afraid people might think that we are a couple. (cos we came together before the others) Cannot take it.

As I was saying, had a lot of fun in cell today. After service, we went to one of the guy's (from our brother cell) house for makan cos he just had a promotion. After that, we went to my place and we sang songs until the cow come home at midnight. But not karaoke song lah... We sang praise and worship songs.

BTW, here's the pic we took outside church that day. Lo and Behold!! And be amazed by our same T-shirt!!!



Hmm.... chatting so much on msn I could not concentrate on this blog... This is like taking me forever to write... BTW, Ningx, you still there? I still waiting for you to add to my msn. My email is chewkuojiun@hotmail.com. Any pretty babes is welcome to add also. Haha.

Then sunday ah... I was on duty lor... What's the ONE number all duty personnel must know? Its the PIZZA NUMBER!!! Or rather the number for ordering pizzas. Wahaha. Especially for those doing duty on weekend... We order Canadian Pizza cos its 2 for 1 so its cheaper that way...



Today was the end of course for some of my guys so I went over to attend the graduation ceremony. If not, I wouldn't have worn uniform this week. YES! Another week of OFF! Then after that, my Grand Master came over to my place and teach me how to play the guitar. He is such a pro man. He taught me how to play (correctly) the classical piece Romance De Armor (sorry I dun have the mp3) and now he is teaching my how to play Classical Gas. Really cool and impressive song to play, but also very hard to master.



And now, I am blogging about my boring life before I sleep... ...

New blog

Just finish creating my cell's blog. www.simcell.blogspot.com. Nothing inside yet... But feel free to take a look in the future when its more updated...

=)

Another Weekend Duty

Nowadays I dun feel like doing weekend duties as much as the last time. Maybe I'm old already, or maybe now that I've got a car, I rather spend the time running around than being cooped by the the ops room of my camp on a sunday.

Weekends should be spent with friends and family. But usually I spend it with friends more. Just now FF tried to convince me to watch a movie with her again. But this time I have to let her down because of my duty.

Few movies that I want to catch:

Kingdom of Heaven. Dunno what is it really about but it looks kinda good.

Guess Who. Because FF says I have to watch. Haha

Coach Carter. This is the movie I have been looking forward to. About a black guy who coaches basketball to a group of black paikia.

Divergence. Because Jade says I have to pay for her ticket. Hahaha.

Star Wars Ep3. Duh.

Sometimes I think I watch too much movies. That's why people like Tom Cruise and Tom Hanks get paid 20million each time they make a movie.

Back to my duty on sunday... Usually, I will bring something to occupy myself for the day so that I will not die of boredom and the guy doing duty the next day will have problem taking over. This time, I brought with me my newly accuired Casino. Can't leave home without it now. Haha. With such playable neck and slim body, its joy enough just to hold it close.

Just realise I only got 200+ left in my bank. Seems like I have been spanding too much this month.

Waiting for my ipod to be delivered...

Want to go home...

A Tale of 2 Cows.

I got this in one of those Fw:Fw:Fw: emails. I know is Bo Liao but I couldn't resist putting it up... because I have no one to forward it to...

A Tale of 2 Cows:

TRADITION CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market them World-Wide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

A BRITISH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You break for lunch.

A SWISS CORPORATION
You have 5,000 cows and none of which belong to you.
You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them.
You claim full employment and high bovine productivity.
You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at RM0.06 per litre. Then midway through, you raised the price to RM0.60 or you cut the supply. When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now want RM1.20.
The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes from recycled cows or the cow urine instead.
Your two cows retire together with the Prime Minister.

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
One cow-peh and one cow-bu.

I love the Casino!!!!

Today took my car for servicing. My very 1st car servicing!!!!

Big Deal!!!!!

In the evening watched movie with Jade again. This girl always watch movies with me because I pay for her ticket, and the food before the movie. (she will slap me for saying this... Haha)

The movie of the day is The Interpreter! Oh my God!! Nicole Kidman is freaking chio (hokkien for pretty) in the movie!!! I think she looks like 20+ years old in the movie. How old is she now? 39? 40? But she looks freaking hot!! Thats what you get for being in Hollywood. If you are born pretty, people practically pay you to make you maintain your beauty. And you will never grow old like us commoners.

I think the movie was pretty hard to follow. Its about this President of this African State who was going to be assasinated, but turns out that this president was the bad guy instead. But the twists and turns in the movie was so fast that in the end I still do not know who did it. So I think you need full mental focus if you want to catch this show.

Or if you are there just to google at Nicole Kidman, then I give it 5 stars.

Oh ya!! Before that, I went to buy this Epiphone Casino from this guy selling it from the internet. I must say, THIS GUITAR ROCKS!!!! The Casino is the replica of the guitar played by John Lennon during his Beatles days. That is why this guitar is so special. The retail value for this guitar is close to $1000 SDG new and I got it for $650. Ain't it a beautiful baby?

Week worth of update

Actually I have been taking off from work since I come back from Taiwan. Reason being the big bosses are still in Taiwan so nobody is really in the mood to work now. Haha

So I have self declared off!!! (dun let me boss know this...)

Hence, I have pretty much nothing to do this week. Except...

On Monday, I met up with Belle and Yanqi from my ex-ministry for lunch. Belle was THE Belle of the ministry when she just join us. Pretty pretty. But she's getting married next year. Sigh... I feel so old. Yanqi is also a very nice girl, but not as pretty as Belle lah. One thing though, when I met them, Belle's face was full of acne. Also got the shock of my life when I saw her. Probably too stressed from work. Dun dare to ask her... Had a good time catching up with both of them. Had not seen them since I left the ministry almost 1 year ago.

On Tuesday, I went to work for a while in the morning. I said work but actually more of meeting some of the guys and talk cock for half a day. Some of them are training at the Marsiling area and I brought roti prata and tea for everybody. "Work" for half a day then go back home and sleep again.

On Wednesday, I went to play mahjong!!!! Wahaha!! But cannot find enough people so we play 3-man mahjong instead. I am a mahjong addict!!!!! But the good part is I won 100 bucks. After which I sold my guitar and then went for cell group. Had a wonderful time at cell group. Not just the fact that there are 3 beautiful ladies in the cell and I was the only guy there yesterday. I think this is a very close and united cell group, And the people are all very committed to the cell. =)

On Thursday, I woke up early to send my little sister to school. Then after that went back to sleep again. Woke up for lunch and then went to sleep again. Jade activated me to help her move some stuff from school back to her house in the afternoon. I think I "last life owe her" wan... That's why she always get me to do things for her, and I do it... Sigh...

Then I met up with Xenaneres! Thats the best part of the week so far. Was suppose to get her to help me buy the Ipod Photo cos she can get it at student's rate. However, it turns out that the student's price is only for those who order online. So we just walk around Junction 8 and had dinner instead. After that she came by my place for a while before she went home. That's the picture of her posing with my guitar. I'm suppose to say on this blog that she plays very well... ...



Thats all I did for this week... Tomorrow I will send my car for its 1st servicing, so I will have no car again for 1 day...

Bye bye Ovation...

Saw this add at a local music website, www.luthermusic.com yesterday:

Date posted : 19 April 2005
Looking for TAKAMINE and OVATION guitars (Must be of Jap/American make) sms me at 9XXXXXX for a fast deal.
Brendon.

Wasn't actively looking to sell my Ovation but then again, I haven't been using it much lately. It was special in the sense that it was the very 1st "good" guitar that I bought. But since I got my new Variax, the Ovation becomes a bit redundant, cos the Variax can sufficently produce all the acoustic guitar sounds I need and more.

So I smsed this guy and said I have the guitar he wants, and so we start chatting. I offered to sell him at $1.5k but in the end I let him bargain until $1150. I bought the thing 3 years ago at 2.4k but I dun think I can sell it for more than 1.2k elsewhere. So I'm pretty happy with the price.

Today I met up with him and close the deal. But before that, 1 last look at my old love...



Oh ya, I throw in the mini amp to sweeten the deal as well. (Obviously I'm not a very good businessman) Whao!! He took almost 1 hour to test the guitar!!! I was so scared he did not want it in the end. Haha. Now I got money to buy my Ipod Photo!!

Primary School Class Reunion!!!

Mention briefly here that I will blog about my Primary School Class reunion before I flew for Taiwan.

Seriouly, this gathering was totally unexpected. The message was passed to me through this friendster message that says:

There will be a mini class gathering on 1-Apr(Fri) at 1930 at Somerset's 24hrs Coffee Club.Please do not ask who is going cos I also dunno. Do spread the word and no worries, this is NO APRIL FOOL's joke!
- KYM

The last time we met, or rather I met up with them, was like 10 years ago, when we were in JCs and Polys. Seriously, I had forgotten who was in my class 15 years ago already! (except for a few of my closer friends)

So before I went, I took out the graduation class of my beloved 6D class.



Can guess which one is me? Haha

Heehee, not much of a help there. I had already forgotten who is who by now. So there I was, going down to Somerset Coffee Club to meet up with a bunch of overgrown kids whom I had forgotten who they are.

I arrived at or about 1930hrs and there were already 2 people there, Liyong and Meina. Sweet, those 2 I recognise. But the next girl that came, I have no idea who she was...

LY: Eh, Baoniu is here!!
Me: Huh? Who is Baoniu?
MN: Our classmate lah!!

And they proceed to rattle off a string of names which I have totally no recollection of. Am I in the right class reunion? Oops. Almost karna whacked.

Heehee, had a great time catching up with all of them. The initial awkwarkness disappeared quickly and soon we were all talking and laughing about the good old times.

BOY!! I MISS THE GOOD OLD TIMES!!!

When problems are cute and everybody is your friend, no?

And the best part is, some of them became so beautiful, that I had to beat myself up for not paying them much attention 15 years ago. Haha. Kids, your investment agent is right - start early.

And the most fun part is to discover what each of them is doing with their lives now... Like one of them is already married with 2 kids... We were like... Wow!!! And she is the slimmest amongst the ladies there!

Miss Gab complained that I had not pictures of people in my 1st photolog. So heres all the pictures we took from the gathering. 1st is the guys, then the girls, then a whole lot of group pictures...















You see the girl in white? The one who is in the extreme left in most of the picture? I think she is SOOO pretty!! (Almost as pretty as FF) I so regret that I did not try to be her good friend when we were in Primary school. And she lives a couple of blocks away from me only somemore. Then after 10 years of friendship then ask her to be my girlfriend... Sigh... JTB...

(Eh, if you were reading this, I was only joking, dun take it too seriously k?)

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Miss Linda Chia had her phone stolen last Sunday. Helping her to ask if anybody had seen or know this man who appear at Holland Village at or about 5pm. Her story and the video of the thief can be seen here.

Mandrian Lesson...

Seems like FF could use some Chinese (or as she say, Ching-Chong) lessons... Therefore, I come up with this blog entry to help her, and other non Cheena guys kick start their Chinese learning. I will show a few common Chinese phases and how they are used in our daily coversation.

Phase: 卖鱼 - Mai Yu
Meaning: Selfish
Usage: 你只买你的东西。 你很卖鱼。 - Ni Zhi Mai Ni De Dong Xi. Ni Hen Mai Yu
(You only buy your own stuff. You are very selfish)

Phase: 叫一天 - Jiao Yi Tian
Meaning: Call it a day
Usage: 工做了这么久， 是到时候叫一天了。 - Gong Zuo Le Zhe Me Jiu, She Dao Shi Hou Jiao Yi Tian Le.
(After working for so long, its time to call it a day)

Phase: 拿一个破 - Na Yi Ge Po
Meaning: Take a break
Usage: 我累了， 要拿一个破。 - Wo Lei Le, Yao Na Yi Ge Po.
(I am tired, need to take a break.)

Phase: 那是点的旁边 - Na Shi Dian De Pan Bian
Meaning: That's beside the point.
Usage: Er... 那是点的旁边。 - Na Shi Dian De Pan Bian.
(That's beside the point.)

Phase: 去一头 - Qu Yi Tou
Meaning: Go ahead
Usage: 我还有事，你去一头巴。- Wo Hai You Shi, Ni Qu Yi Tou Ba
(I still have something on, You go ahead)

Phase: 没有眼睛的鹿 - Mei You Yan Jin De Lu
Meaning: No idea
Usage: 问题 - 你知道今晚的晚餐吃什么吗？答案: 没有 眼睛的鹿。- Wen Ti - Ni Zhi Dao Jin Wan De Wan Chan Chi She Me Ma? Da An - Mei You Yan Jin De Lu
(Qn - Do you know what's for dinner tonight? Ans - No idea)

Phase: 叫我巴使苏卡又打我到傻 - Jiao Wo Ba Shi Su Ka You Da Wo Doa Sha
Meaning: Call me Babushka and spank me silly
Usage: Ask FF.

There, that's all I can think off now. Hope this is useful in helping you start your Mandrian learning. No need to thank me. Thank FF for the inspiration.

My 1st Photolog...

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Welcome to my very 1st photo log! This entry will be very boring with nothing but pictures from Taiwan!!!!

This is directly outside my camp!! I have no idea why we have to sleep beside a cemetery. Nobody in the camp wants to wake up in the middle of the night, nobody wants anything outside the camp to wake up at nignt.

What I see everyday in Taiwan... Same for the next few pics... BORING!!!

This is where we sleep. Haha. Messy!!!

And this is what it looks like when we look outside the window. Haha. Like Jail like that.

This is where I send all my time and money... On the Internet... Blogging...

My one and only Nights Off to a local town.

Taiwanese Pachinco!!! A favourite past time for the kids there.

Nothing to do but eat, eat and eat... Next day LS!!! (diarrohea)

Another pic of the local town... ...

Heehee, part of the night life there, male stripper dancing on the balcony to attract costumers inside... Serious!

R&R time... the most interesting thing I saw... rather the only thing worthy of a snapshot. A carrefore in Taiwan. Comparable to Singapore's.

This is dedicated to my favourite Miss Slow... You see something familiar?

A last look at Taiwan... Haha...

Heehee, the best thing abt SAF, is that they give you all the things you need free. Got 3 condoms in case I needed to use during my R&R. Haha. Was talking to Cindy about it earlier...

Me: SAF give free condom for my Taiwan trip....
Cindy: Issit? I heard its lousy, it breaks when filled with water...
Me: Issit? I dunno...
Cindy: Why dun you try it?
Me: Wif who?
Cindy: Ask you to fill it with water lah!!! Not use for sex!!!!
Me: ...

Thought I might get lucky just now...

Oh ya!!! I'm so happy!! I am the 1st guy that rock in FF's blog!!! Haha. The page of history will forever remember this day when people read her blog 100 years from now...

Sweet.

Be Cool????

Seems like FF has gotten quite a reputation. I was telling friend Nick that I would be going out with FF for a movie. Nick knows FF only by her blog.

Me: I going to watch movie with FF later. You wanna come along?
Nick: Wah... The guy basher? Scary leh...
Me: No lah, in real life, FF is not like that...
Nick: ooo...

Truth be told, sometimes when I read FF's blog, I get scared too.

Just Joking. FF is really a very nice girl in person.

Was intending to stay at home and sleep the whole day today but FF convinced me (without much effort) to go watch a movie with her. And suddenly, I get the urge to buy a hard disk MP3 player and I went do to Sim Lim Square to have a look. But the parking, the crowd and time pressure spoilt my mood so I did not buy anything in the end.

Watched Be Cool with FF and E. FF enjoyed the show, E did not and me... well... It was ok I guess. A bit slow and predictable, and I think the director is trying to do too many things in the show. Had a few good laughs though, and I enjoyed Aerosmith's performance in the show.

Something happened today. I SO feel like giving up waiting for Her now... Should I? (I know all you commentators will say yes...) God help me please. All previous beliefs and arguements seem so invalid now. Please give me a sign...

The vedict on Casino suppose to be out tomorrow? God have mercy on us.

Photolog later... not really in the mood now...

Re: R&R @ Kaoshiung, Day 1

Eh... Wanted to reply the comments from Sharon and Jade from the earlier post, but I think it needs space and attention to fully address the issues.

Both Jade and Sharon, and many other friends,

1st of all, I want to thank you for your concern and support so far. Same for all my friends. I know that a lot of people care for me. Without you guys I might not survived so long. But sad to say, I only "know" on the mental level. On the emotional level, I can never grasp the reality of somebody actually caring about me. I "know" but I cannot "feel". I. can. almost. never. feel.

"what puzzles me most is that you know, but yet you still do it..."

"Please don't just say u know...But do it..."

To reply those 2 comments, I would like to borrow the words of Apostle Paul:

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do... For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do–this I keep on doing... Romans 7: 15-19.

I'm not sure if any of you feel this same way as I do. It is very hard to struggle with all your might and at the end lose the battle. I sometimes think a heroin addict has an easier time than I do. I know that I am a wreck when it comes to dealing with my own emotions, and she knows about this very well also. But the worst part is that I know what I need to do but still I always fail to do it. Dun give me the "pray and God will help you" kind of answer. She always do it. It's totally cliche and practically helpless.

"...you dedicate one blog entry to blame God for being unfair and taking delight in seeing you in pain when He absolutely has no part in the mess you created."

I know that most the things that I am suffering is I "Zhi Zuo Zhi Shou" (own do own suffer) but I think to say God has no part in it is like saying God had no part in my life at all. I take comfort in the fact that many a great men of God before me had brought their own petitions of aparrent injustice to God. People like Job, Jeremiah and many psalmists had complaint that God had not been fair in His dealings with them. Of course, my own ramblings seems selfish and narrow-minded in comparison and I cannot be compared with the least of them. But still, I think it is better to get God involved than to have Him ignored.

So there, I appreciate your comments and advice but most of the time, I already know what I have to do. But like I said, the good that I want to do, I do not do it, the evil that I do not want to do, I keep on doing it. I DO, however, need your prayers more than anything. Pray anything that you deem appropriate. God will do the rest.

I think I have addressed everything I wanted to address. I hope none of you is offended by my response.

I'm back!!!!!

I wanted to say "KNNBCCB I'M BACK!!!!!" But I think I'll just settle for "I'M BACK!!!" instead. Me is soo happy to be back, really. Photolog later.

Me arrived at 0035hrs this morning at Changi Airport Terminal 1. I did not stop for duty free. I did not stop for anything. I went straight to the taxi stand and took a cab straight back home. I arrived home at or about 0100hrs. I kicked the door down and shouted "Hey You Bastards! Wake Up! I'm Back!!!!!!!!!!!"

No lah. Not actually.

China Airlines suck compared to Singapore Airlines. The SAF can be so cheap skate sometimes.

I miss home so much.
I miss my car.
I miss my PC.
I miss my bed and my air-con.
I miss my room.
I miss my guitar.
I miss my other guitar.
I miss my other other guitar...

R&R @ Kaoshiung, Day 1

Hmm... Seems like the previous post was not my last blog in Taiwan after all.

Am having my R&R now. At this hotel called Dragon Hotel at Kaoshiung City, which is like a million miles from everywhere. So I decide to stay in the hotel and watch TV instead. Actually opposite the hotel got a KTV lounge, but that's not my kind of place. The next best thing is the 7-11s. I took a walk around the area in the afternoon, I think there are like at least 11 x 7-11s within this 1km radius. I had my lunch and dinner from there too (bought cup noodles). The only other place worth checking out is the Kaoshiung Carrefore. It is much smaller than the one in Spore though.

Was chatting with my friend Jade over the msn last night.

Me: Eh, go read my blog leh.
Jade: u ar, everyday ask me to read your blog.
Me: Ya lor...

Jade reads my blog...

Jade: hehehhehhehhehe
Jade: ur blog alwiz abt tht ler
Jade: put smthg new lar
Me: ...

Eh... Actually I dunno what to write also. I'm writing now cos I am bored. 11 people online on my msn but every single one is either away or occupied. There is nothing good on the hotel TV now also. Am now at the hotel lobby... At least today I can blog without the pressure of the timer ticking down, cos the internet usage here is free. And there is nobody here to fight with me for the usage.

On the down side, the hotel here is quite lousy. I want to pay to watch HBO also cannot. Their TV only has Chinese speaking programs. Imagine Batman of the Future or Transformers speaking Chinese. Sianz. Will stay another day here tomorrow before I take the 9pm flight back to Spore. ETA at T1 is approximately 0130hrs.

My plan for tomorrow is this: Buy lotsa snacks, stay in hotel and watch cartoon all day long. Oh ya, remember I said the electronic stuff here is cheaper than in Spore? Well. that's crap. The stuff here is more expensive than in Spore. Ptooi! Waste my time.

Over this past 2 weeks, I have learnt nothing, except that Singapore Army men's favourite website is still www.sggirls.com. As for me, other than blogging and reading other people's blog, I usually use the internet to check my email, friendster (another sg army guy favourite) and checking out good guitars and good guitar deals.

Watched Sex equals Zero on the bus to the hotel. The lead actress is SOOOOO pretty I gonna die!!!!! Anybody have any idea who she was? And when can I marry her?

Probably will be blogging again tomorrow.

Arggh!!! I want to go back now!!!!

Last blog from Taiwan.

Well, this is most probably the last time I blog from Taiwan. Come tomorrow, I will go for my R&R in Kaoshuing City. Heard there is nothing I can do there except for shopping. I think there are also Massage Parlours and Sauna Houses but I dun think I will be going there. Anyway, I'm on a tight budget, 1000NT (50SGD) left only. In most likelihood, I will stay in the hotel and eat instant noodles. I'm not a tourist kind of person anyway.

As regards to the issues I blogged over the past 2 days, there is not much of an update there. But I did find some comfort in God's Word, the Bible. And it is found in, of all places - you wouldn't believe it - Lamentations.

The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. It is good for a man to bear the yoke while he is still young. Let him sit alone in silence, for the LORD has laid it on him. Let him bury his face in the dark -- there may yet be hope. Lamentations 3:25-29 (italics mine)

It speaks straight into my heart. If there is any hope to be found, it can only be found in God. And this will be my prayer...

Another verse that I like,

How painful are honest words! But what do your arguements prove? Do you mean to correct what I say, and treat the words of a despairing man as wind? Job 6:25,26

Those familiar with the book of Job will understand what I mean. Still, I appreciate all the comments given so far. Will update if there is any changes.

12 more hours to R&R, 48 more to the flight home.

The Saga Continues...

No, I'm not blogging about Star Wars today.

After that sms she sent last night, how can I still hate her? Had a long chat with her after that. She said she dun want me to hate her and dun want me to like her either, which I told her its impossible for me. Then I asked her:

Me: "Are you really so hard hearted that no matter how long I wait, you will never be moved? Or am I so unworthy that whatever I do, you will not give me a chance?"

Her: "I'll cannot give you a confirm answer now because nobody will know what will happen in the future..."

Me: "If your answer is this then I will wait, even if there is only 1% hope, I will wait until there is no hope at all..."

So there. Back to square 1. And the Saga Continues... I'm sure many of you are disappointed in me for my decision. For that, I am sorry. After all, I'm pushing myself towards more hurts and heartache in the future. And the I will whine in my blog and to all my frenz, who have a hard time with me as it is already. Oh well...

Coldness.

Thought I would take a break from blogging tonight but in the end I still logged in.

The weather turned extremely cold suddenly today. Had to walk around the whole day with a jacket on. Coincidentally, the coldness of the weather also reflect the coldness in my heart. I dun think I want to elaborate much today. (Although I'm sure all the scandal whores would like to know the latest happening between me and Her.) Well, this is for sure: I totally gave her up and cut her off from my life. (Did I just hear you cheer? Or are you doing the Kallang wave?) Yup, I'm sure many people will be happy that I finally let it go. Not that they've got chance now that I am target-less, but just that nobody believed that I can make it with Her, so I am better off to give it up. Well, I stopped believing in it myself also.

It did not end well though, I wanted Her to know one last time how hurt I was, but turns out she doesn't care. So I though "Fuck, I dun care either. You can die and go to hell for all I care." So that was it. The End.

I'm such a sore loser ain't I?

3 more days before I touch Spore soil again. The mud on my face is soil. Our soil.

Update@ 2130:

She just smsed me.

"Guojun, I feel very frustrated... I want to apologise to you for my insensitive words... I hope our relationship wun end in such a bad note... "

Argh! Why can't she even let me hate her in peace? Now I become the bad guy liao.

...

Oh God,

Does it pleasure You to test my faith to no end? Why is it that the one thing I desire, I do not get? Why is Your promise to me not fulfiled? Is it because of my sin? Or my faithlessness? Is it because I have not seeked You enough? What have I done wrong? Why do others get what they want but not me? What is it that they have that I do not have?

Why does the wicked prosper while the righteous perish? Did Your Word not say that You will bless the righteous? Am I not faithful enough? If I am wicked, why do You not let me prosper? If I am righteous then why do You not bless me? Am I not wicked or righteous enough, that You neither let me prosper or bless me?

Why is the only thing I desire I cannot get? Is it not better to have a heart with no desire than to burn with passion? Where is the Word that You gave to me now? Have my ears deceived me when I heard Your voice and Your promise? Shall I rather be deaf then? For to be deaf is better than hearing and be deceived by my own ears! Or is it my own heart that deceives me? My heart Oh my heart!!! Why do you burn for something which you will not acquire? If this is not for me to have, then why does it affect me so? Can I just shake the dust off my feet and say "Ha! Let's forget about it!"? If this is not mine to have from the beginning, then why do You not say so earlier? Why do I have to go this heartache again and again and again?

I am no man of great faith!! Why does it pleasure You to test me again and again? And Again! Will You not let me rest? Why do I have to be the one who keeps returning to the Refiner's fire while others can enjoy themselves? Is this my cross to bear? And no comfort will be given to me? Must I wait until I die before I see Your blessings? I do not have the faith of Abraham, you know!

Day and night I pray that You will grant my desire but yet You do not. Does it please You that I pray endlessly with no answer? Or are You afraid that by granting my heart's desire I will be drawn away from You? That once I get what I want, I will not come to You anymore? Why is it that others pray and You answer, while I continue to beat my chest in vain? Am I not Your child too? Or am I not worthy enough?

Oh Lord! Where are You that I seek You in vain? Does it please You that I lose everything and have only You? If this is so, then take away my arms and legs, my heart and my life! What good am I to You that have nothing but a void inside my heart?

If that desire is not to be mine to have, then why does it burn within me still? How I wish that I were a man without feelings! Does it not serve You better that I just obey Your commands? Why do You put within me this passion that cannot be quenched? Oh I wish that You will let me sleep and not awake, than be awake and plagued by this burning in my heart!

Personal Dreams?

KNNBCCB!!!! I am soo pissed! I typed this entry for 1 whole hour and the place blacked out! Wasted my time and money. (50cts per half hour) Oh well, guess I just have to re-typed the whole entry again. =(

My Princess Cell Leader asked me to list my personal dreams for this year and I thought I will put it in my blog as well. These are, afterall, my personal dreams. I understand that some of these things do not make any sense to my readers but please bear with me for this entry ok? Thanks.

Basically, this is what I wrote to her in my email reply:

Dear Princess Cell Leader,

Sorry I took so long to reply. These are the dreams that I would like to have for this year and beyond.

1. I want to know God more intimately and have the confidence that God knows me also. I do not wish that when I meet the Lord, He says that He does not know me.

2. I want to have a group of boys from SIM which I am able to lead. Hopefully we can start something and I can find me 12 there. =)

3. I want to grow in my character. Aspects like strength (mental and emotional), integrity, courage, faith, hope, love, self-control, humility... etc. Maybe have to be more specific. Will think about it more later.

4. I want to perform well in my work. To excel if possible. Also to improve my physical fitness. (partly for work and partly for health)

5. I want to form a band. Its a dream of mine for a long long time. But always talk only and no action. Also, I hope that my guitar skills will improve. My guitar playing actually not that good. I hope that I can improve until I can comfortable play in a band setting and perform as well.

6. I want a girlfriend. Heehee. Is that a dream too? Doesn't look like it will happen in the near future though.

That's all I can think of now. Thanks for asking.

Oh ya, before I forget, Ningx, you can find my email in my profile. Feel weird to write it out here. Hope you will add me in MSN soon!

4 more days to R&R and 6 more days to go back to Spore!

Random Ramblings

I hate it when the links in my blog suddenly become non-existent.

I hate it when people MSN/ SMS me the comments of my blog instead of leaving the comments in my blog.

I hate it when I'm supposed to have a job but people look me no up and took away my responsibility.

I hate it when people are later than me for movies.

I hate it when people say they will do something for the sake of saying it and not actually do they things that they say they are going to do.

I hate it when I'm in the position of being assualted and I have no means to defend myself.

I hate it when I got a lot of things to do but am not able to do because of circumstance is not within my control.

I hate it when circumstance is not within my control.


Hmm.... Din realise there is so many things that I hate. I am a very hateful person... So much for the halo above my head.

Can't wait to go back Spore. Miss home and everybody back there. Esp all the pretty babes.

I hate it when I miss the pretty babes...

Back from exercise.

Well, here I am... Back from the stupid exercise. Still in Taiwan though. Will only go back to my beloved homeland next Sat.

Why is the exercise stupid, you may ask. (well, you may not but I'm going to tell you anyway.) Initially, when I was asked to come to Taiwan for this exercise, I was told that I will have a BIG mission. "You are required to go Taiwan as the Chief Safety Officer, last minute order by the COA (Chief of Army)" No kidding! Not that I know COA personally, rather, he asked for a Chief Safety Officer to be present for the exercise and I was deemed the best man for the job.

However, when I arrived in Taiwan, I found out that the person in charge dun look me too up, as I am too junior is rank. So, he took the responsibility of the job upon himself and I just have to tag along. And Tag Along I did. For the full 4 days of exercise, I just tagged along, waiting from night to day, from day to night. For 3 whole days I waited for nothing to happen. Even if something did happen, it was really none of my business. On the 4th day, yesterday, I decided that I had enough of it. The night before the last attack, I went back to my bunk and sleep.

Slept all the way until this morning when the rest of them came back.

Me: "The attack finish oreadi ah? How did it go?"

Them: "Ya lah, people fight you come back and sleep!"

Oh well, that's the end of that. Now I have another 4 days (excluding R&R) of nothing to do before I come back to S'pore, for another 2 weeks of nothing to do. Basically, this month I'm getting paid 2.6k++ for doing absolutely nothing. SAF should use me to advertise for their recruitment drive.

BTW, anybody wants anything from Taiwan? Heard they got cheap electronic stuff here. I heard the Playstation Portable (PSP) here is only 300SDG. (Singapore is about 500+ I think)

Let it be...

With no reference to FF's previous blog entry, I am an officer of the Singapore Armed Forces. Haha. I realised I have a hard time convincing people on that. Usually, the conversation will go something like this:

Him: Wah! you officer ah?
Me: Ya.

Him: What rank?
Me: Captain.

Him: Wah! You so young captain already ah?
Me: Ok lah, I not very young liao.

Him: You how old?
Me: Going 27 this year.

Him: Wah! I thought you doing NS like those 18 year olds!
Me: =)

It is true. In fact this conversation just took place again 2 days ago. The fact is, I find it hard to convince people that I am already 26 years old. People usually assume I'm 21 or 22 years old... The curse of a childish look... Sigh

Was Her-crazy again the last few days. Cannot stop thinking about her. Finally, after much thoughts and prayer, I decide to sms her the following:

"I am sorry for all the things I did and try to make you love me. You are right, Love cannot be forced. I am sorry for the things I did that made you uncomfortable. Please forgive me. Knowing you is God's most wonderful gift to me and I really like you very much. I will continue to wait and pray but I will try not to disturb you anymore..."

To which she replied:

"Thanks, Glad you see it this way."

I think she is really happy that I finally release her from my demonic grip. Haha. Actually, that was a very long sms (takes 2 smses to send) and I'm not sure if she got the whole message. Maybe she just got "I'm sorry" and "You are right, love cannot be forced" and miss the "I will continue to wait" part. That's why she is so happy.

For myself, actually it is very hard for me to let go. In fact, I dunno if I will go back on my word and start "disturbing" her again. I think I need a lot of emotional strength (which I sorely lack) to fully let go, and a lot of faith (which I lack also) to let God work things out for me. But if I believe God has intended the best for me (which I do), then I must let Him take control. No?

Just shortly after that, a friend smsed me:

"I pray that ... we will trust in Him for our needs in life"

Hmm.. Our needs in life... With no reference to FF's blog again, I think God is using her to speak to me. Heehee.

Today is the start of (my church's) G12 conference. How I wish I can be there.

Going out on exercise tonight. Will be back on the 10th. 4 days without sleep, 4 days without blog... Hope I come back alive...

NOBODY ONLINE!

I logged into the internet at 7.30pm. I looked at my MSN,

NOBODY ONLINE!

Obviously an indication that I am too free. At least the exercise starts tomorrow, then I will have things to do and time will pass faster.

To this date I have spent close to 500NT on food alone. That is about 25 Sing dollars in 5 days. That is way too much. Will resolve to spend less in the next few days. Plus my internet money (10NT per half hour), I have spent close to 800NT already. Now I only left with 2200NT to last me until 16th April. Minus the 1700NT which is suppose to be for my R&R, I'm left with 500NT until the 14th. That's a bit more than 50NT a day.

Think I'm getting fat here.

Nowadays Friendster included this feature of showing you horoscope. I hate that. I know most people dun mind having their horoscope shown, even as a part of Friendster. I believe there are a lot of people who actually liked the idea. And many people religiously obey its every suggestion. But I personally cannot see the logic of it. Can anybody tell me how can the alignment of distant cosmic bodies (aka "stars") determine the outcome of my destiny?

THIS, I cannot understand.

11 more days to go

Well, this is officially my 4th day in Taiwan. Still very much the same. Eat, sleep and play internet. Plus read a bit and watch a bit of movies.

Every night, the mess in the camp starts opening at 1900hrs. Then it will start to play some nice movies. So far I have watched Terminator3, Anger Management, Underworld and ... and... I forgot liao. Oh ya, I watched Spongebob on the plane to Taiwan. YEAH!

The lady in the mess is very cute. Got chance I take a photo with her and put it up when I go back. Haha.

Everybody is missing home. You see MSN nicks like "xiang nian singapore" and "Love from Taiwan" and "From Taiwan with love". <= actually that's mine. Haha.

Another Zuo Bo Day.

Another day of doing nothing.

Had a hard time getting to sleep last night cos the person beside me snored like a train. Haha. The only highlight for the day is my 5km run. However, the wind is so strong though, that I have to run diagonal to go straight. The route is very scenic but sorry I can't take any pictures to show you.

Other than that I spent a lot of time reading. Just finished a short book call "God's Psychiatry". It is a short but wonderful book about how to live life with God's mindset. Also took some time to fast and pray. Think this is a nice quiet place for devotion and meditation.

The food here is especially starchy and oily. Think I will gain a lot of weight if I dun watch myself. Afterall, most of the time spent here is eating and sleeping.

Still missing home... and Her...

Blogging while I still can

Hmm... Today also very free. Actually, having nothing to do is a terrible thing! For the past 2 days I only eat, sleep and shit. Other than that there's nothing I can do. Hopefully can get some job tomorrow (which is unlikely)

Anyway, once the work start, I wun be so free to blog all the time like now. Did anybody miss me back home? I doubt so. But I seriously miss home. I dunno why, but I feel so far away from everybody.

With Love, from Taiwan..

Hey! Guess what? Now they actually have the Internet in the Camps in Taiwan! This is totally unexpected 5 years ago. Oh how we have progressed from then...

So here am I, blogging on the internet computer from Taiwan. The internet computers here needs to be fed before we can use them. That's 10NT (about Singapore 50cents) for 30 minutes of use. Right now I got about 20 minutes left.

The weather here is fine. Pretty cool as compared to Singapore, but it can get pretty cold at night. Today is the 1st day so I am still pretty free. Just have to settle a few admin stuff. Pretty boring actually. I miss home and everybody there already. Hope time will pass faster soon.

Well, that's all I have to report for now. Kinda weird to blog whe everybody's looking at you.

One last blog before I fly.

Actually I DO have something to blog today.

But I am too tired. Maybe just a brief account of what happen, in case I forgot when I had come back from Taiwan.

In point form:

1. Got some stupid last minute arrow to go Commando Cliff. Wasted one whole day there.

2. A lot of things unable to settle because of it.

3. Met my Primary School classmates for dinner. (will blog more on it when I come back)

4. Rushed off to watch Wedding Date soon after. (Double date, Nice Show!)

5. Still have not packed my stuff for Taiwan, and not changed my money to Taiwan currency.

6. Flying off in 7 hours' time.

7. Back in 336 hours' time.