Sunday, December 05, 2004

If I die tomorrow...

"Nothing in life is certain except death and taxes" -- Benjamin Franklin

To that, somebody replied "There is always death and taxes; however, death doesn't get worse every year." -- Unknown

Everyone of us will die. I am sure of it. I will die, just that I dunno when. Maybe 50 years from now, maybe 10. Maybe I will die next month or next week.

Or tomorrow. Who knows?

If I die the very next moment, please ask my parents not to give a Buddhist or Taoist funeral. Kindly remind them to give me a Christian funeral. They should know, but just to be sure. Feel free to cremate my body. I dun think it will hurt anymore. And I dun want to take up any space in our land-precious country. (I think if I was buried, I would be dug out sooner or later anyway.)

All my monetary assets goes to my little brother. He wants to be a businessman, so the extra cash will be very useful to him. My TV, Hi-fi, DVD player, PC and all that shit goes to him also. My guitars and my piano will go to my little sister. She's got some interest in music and I hope that she will develop it further. My Christian books and Bibles and stuff, my friends and the church can have it - dun think anybody in the house will want those things. For my parents? I think those few hundred thousands from my insurance coverage should be enough for them. I suppose photographs and stuff can keep around the house; but as for all the toys and souvenirs that I bought, I think those can be thrown away.

If anybody wants anything from me, in remembrance or otherwise, please let me know early. Or at least before I really die.

The people I will really miss:

My little sister. Definitely the top of the list. Watched her grow from a little baby to the fine young lady that she is now. Always bring a smile to my face, she's my little pride and joy. Hope that she will grow up to be a wonderful woman.

The rest of the family. My brother, my father and my mother. Not the closest people in my life, but they are, nevertheless, my family. And a very large part of my life and who I am. Hope my brother will have a better shot at life than I did, and he will make it in all the things he does. I might as well take this chance to say this (I might not have another chance to say it if I dun say it now): "Mom, Dad, thanks for bringing me up and everything. I know you have given your all. And I am sorry for all the heartaches I have given you."

My close friends and buddies. Debbie, Cindy, Sharon. You girls are like my bestest friends. You have always been there for me when I am down, depressed or lonely. Thanks for the time and effort that you have put into our friendship. I pray that I can meet you all in Heaven in the further, even if it means I have to wait another 80 years. On the guys department, I have Jinlong, Ben, Junsong, Desmond and Kelvin. I have little guy friends (as you guys should already know) so you are really great guys on my lists. Thanks for your friendship also.

And of course, Her.

And special thanks to my spiritual mentor, Mr. Bernard. He taught me everything I ever know about God.

"Dying is our most important act, for which life is a long journey of preparation." -- Henri Nouwen

Am I ready to die? Actually I am not. Do I fear death? Absolutely. Will I die? Of course. Just that I dunno when. But I hope I will be ready when the time comes.

BTW, a lot of the people I mention never read my blog, so when the need arises, please inform them of this entry.

3 Comments:

Blogger Maximus said...

This sounds serious.. you found that you've got AIDS? makes me wonder if i should draft my will as well... but I dont think i've got anything to offer.. hahaha..

1:03 pm  
Blogger FF said...

CHOI CHOI CHOI!!!!! Let's hope you outlive cos I don't want to ever have to mourn you.

2:06 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

If u left, do u know how many ppl will b sad? I know I will and I am surely know she will. I think u want her to be happy, dun ever do that then...

Although I am not in ur best friend list. To me, u really good. U r like my good bro. U alwiz listen to my probs and alwiz help me when I needed. U r also in my testimony...

I am sure God will never forsake a good ppl like you. He will bless you. May be he just want to build you to be the best...

Be happy, bro. You have never lack in your wealth. Love need time... Be patient...I am sure you will have good life partner... May be her (who knows) and May also not her... We will never know what God's plan...Pray lor...

Don't always think for death, do u know how many people sad when they saw and knew abt tht? U knew who will be sad...Do you really want ppl who love you to be sad?

Treasure your life and you will be happy... Think your MRT experience q unique...

Take care,bro

Jade

12:32 am  

Post a Comment

<< Home