Me, myself and I
I am the most self-centered, self serving, selfish person I know. I would like to think that I am a helpful person but I am not. I would like to think that I do things for the good of others but I do not. I would very much like to live my life for other people but I cannot.
Bryam Adams sings "Everything I do, I do it for you".
But everything I do, I do it for myself. There is no doubt about it. If I am honest enough, if I look into myself deep enough, all my behaviour, every one of my action, each of my motivation, everything boils down to me, Me, ME.
ME.
Everytime I set out to do something, I only do it for myself. When I do something to help others, it is also for my self-centered agenda. I help others out of my own convenience, I help others so that next time they will help me back, I help others so that they will like me. I do all the things that I do to gain satisfaction, recognition and reputation. For myself and only myself.
I have not done anything good for anybody. Even if I did, it was a by-product of my self-serving motives. I wish people good day so that they will wish me back. I sms-ed people to ask how they are, so that they can reply and ask me how I am. I call people up so that they will talk to me.
I go all out to help people so that they will buy me lunch... or dinner. (depending on the time of the day.)
To all the people who think that I am a nice guy, I am sorry to say that you are gravely mistaken. I am nothing more than a self-centered bastard, who does things only to please myself.
I live in the pits of my selfish nature, hiding in darkness, shunning from the Light.
God help me. (notice the “me” again)
Bryam Adams sings "Everything I do, I do it for you".
But everything I do, I do it for myself. There is no doubt about it. If I am honest enough, if I look into myself deep enough, all my behaviour, every one of my action, each of my motivation, everything boils down to me, Me, ME.
ME.
Everytime I set out to do something, I only do it for myself. When I do something to help others, it is also for my self-centered agenda. I help others out of my own convenience, I help others so that next time they will help me back, I help others so that they will like me. I do all the things that I do to gain satisfaction, recognition and reputation. For myself and only myself.
I have not done anything good for anybody. Even if I did, it was a by-product of my self-serving motives. I wish people good day so that they will wish me back. I sms-ed people to ask how they are, so that they can reply and ask me how I am. I call people up so that they will talk to me.
I go all out to help people so that they will buy me lunch... or dinner. (depending on the time of the day.)
To all the people who think that I am a nice guy, I am sorry to say that you are gravely mistaken. I am nothing more than a self-centered bastard, who does things only to please myself.
I live in the pits of my selfish nature, hiding in darkness, shunning from the Light.
God help me. (notice the “me” again)
posted by Guojun at 10:48:00 pm
1 Comments:
Another predictable but well written article.
Regardless of how you rate yourself, you are still a nice guy.
How manipulative and selfish can you get if you are willing to part with tens of thousands of dollars, knowing you prob will have a hard time getting it back, to help others? That is a lot of money used to buy friends!
If that is selfish, then I really dont know what unselfish.
Dont be so hard on yourself, friend!
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